Invitation to the All Stars

Coming in 2nd place is where the Yellow Jackets ended up this season. Tyler was invited to participate in the try outs for the All Stars. Try outs were held at 4pm a week ago. My girlfriend Kerrie was nice enough to take Tyler down for me. I followed up at 5:15pm after I got off from work. There were a total of 26 boys who ranged from 6-7 year olds. They were only to pick 12 boys. They sent the boys home and told them that if they received a call tomorrow, that they were in. Come 5pm Tyler was still not called. It was now 9pm and reality hit that he didn't make the team. As I spoke with him and consolidated him, I told him that he gave 100% and that it is OK. I didn't understand. He said, "Mom, I was focused, I drilled like my coach asked and I continued to follow all of his directions, but I still was not chosen!" I told him that there is always next year. Do not be so hard on yourself. I wonder where he gets this. I tell you, he is so me at that age and of course now. He strives for perfection and he doesn't give up until he has it right. He is too young to be so competitive. We love you Tyler....

HONORING OUR VETERANS

HONORING OUR VETERANS...With this being Military Appreciation Month, I would like to dedicate today to our Veterans. There is so much I would like to say about those who served in past wars. Those who received an angry reception when they returned home, those who stood up and served with pride. And yet my words fall sadly short. May we as a nation never again betray those who fight for our freedoms.

Good News

I hate always posting bad news. I have a blog to keep all my friends around the world up to date on our family. Not all of them are on Facebook. Plus this is more private. I do apologize for always leaving depressing info. It is time to reflect on all the good that has been brought to us and try not to focus on always the bad stuff. GOD is good to us, we need to always stop to thank him for what he has given to us. We seem to take for granted all the little things that fall through the crack. So my goal to you and to others is to try to thank GOD in prayer each day for at least 10 things that you are grateful for.

Accident

Eddie was nice enough to go get me a breakfast burrito the other day and some lady smacked into the back of our Expedition. He is luck he had a chance to get into the vehicle before she hit him. I had a rent-a-car for 3 days. So Eddie took the car over to Eric and the Body shop to fix. In the meantime Eric discovered that all 4 of my ball joints are shot. Eddie also took it to another mechanic to double check and Yes, it is indeed. Bummer. It is going to cost about $800.00 to repair.

My Shoulder Popped Really Loud!

I popped my shoulder on Friday night and can barley move it. I decided to goto the ER. They did some exrays and determined that I have alot of calcium build-up on my shoulder. They asked if I ever was hurt or any kind of trauma to the shoulder. I do not re-call anything of that sort. I only played softball for about 2 of my adult years. I tried to throw the "Too much Laundry" but the doctor laughed and said that, that would not be the situation. They put me on some Percoset and I am scheduled to see the doctor next Thursday to determine whether a shot or surgery will work.

D.V.T. Test Results

I met with the Radiologist on Wednesday to have my Ultra-sound Dublar test. Everything came out good. There are no current blood closts. Thank you GOD!

Harvest Festival

Ryan's last day of school was on Halloween. He enjoyed the Trunk-n-Treat at Ramona Lutheran. Eddie picked up both boys and took them around the businesses for Trick-or-Treating. They had a lot of fun and came home with alot of candy. On Saturday they had soccer games. The boys won both of there games. What an exhausting day. The next team up to play had there opponot forfeit there game so Ryan was asked to stay for a double. What do you think the little guy did. You are right! He stayed to help out the other Soccer team. By then I was really tired and I was even started to fall asleep in my lawn chair, but it was alot of fun. We finally got home around 2pm. Tried to get the boys down for a nap before the Harvest Festival, but Ryan and Eddie were the only two that took a snooze. The Harvest Festival was great! What a wonderful job everyone did putting everything together. Yes, Daniel was there. I wish Eddie would of warned me. Being put on the spot is not good.. He is working on this though. I have simmered down since Danny arrived. I figured GOD doesn't want me to get all upset when he is in control and has the plan going on here, not me. LOL Our friend Jeff and Harmaney showed up. I really enjoyed there company. We invited them over after everything was over. Great time! The boys were sad that Danny had to goto his house, but we explained to them the situation and I think Tyler gets it.

DANIEL RETURNS

I need all the prayer in the world right now! I am angry and fustrated and am throwing my hands up. Some of you may know that Daniel is my step son whom I helped raise since he was 18 months old. Daniel has also had his share of Drugs, alcohol, jail and you can only imagine. Four years ago Daniel ran away and was in and out of re-hab homes. He has screwed every family member except for the "Maxwell's" whom I told him to stay away! I do not trust him, I don't want to see him and I deffidentely don't want to hear his voice. He has screwed me over, cost me $1,000's of dollars and I don't want him around my children! I have asked for forgiveness many times, but when I hear of him I cringe! Daniel is a drop out as of 8th grade. He tells you exactly what you want to hear before he gets ready to SHIT on you. On Sunday night this past weekend the phone rang and Eddie answered it. It was Daniel. Daniel has cried wolf so Eddie is there to bail him out and to satisfy his needs. he had enough nerve to ask if Daniel can come back home to live with us! Daniel is going to be 19 on November 9th. I said, "Absolutely NOT! He is an adult and he made his bed and he needs to lie in it. " Eddie and I fought till 1pm. I am so ready to seriously leave and take my boys with me and never come home! I told Eddie that if Daniel steps foot in my house I will file for a Divorce. I have way too many helath problems to half to deal with his BULL SHIT!! Why me!!! I wasn't raised this way. Why me??? I have given up! Well it is now Thursday and Eddie has mentioned that he is picking Daniel up tomorrow morning in Ontario and he is meeting the EX wife. He made arrangements for Daniel to stay at In His Steps here in Ramona. Personally, it is too close. He could of just stayed there in Bakersfield and not come anywhere near us! the judge again slapped his little paws for crimes that he has committed. I do not understand why he gets off on every offense that he does. I am tired of being associated with him. I am embarrassed! So please pray for peace and for me to somehow get through this with out falling apart. And Eddie wonders why I like to drink. Hello!!!! I want all this bad stuff to go away! I am reliving the past from when Eddie and I met and I do not want to go back. GOD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Follow-up Doctor Appointment

Ok, so today was my follow up appointment with my doctor for my previous diagnoise of Vericos Veins in the Uterus and my sises that keep growing. I also spoke to him about a sudden knumbness in my left leg that lasted about 48 hours. Throbbing and kinda a dead drop leg. Although I have always had pain off and on in this leg, the knumbess goes from my thigh to my calf and relates to a deep feeling charlie horse. Eddie keeps scaring me about all this stuff on the news that they are talking about with Yasmin and Ocella. This is the pill I was on for almost a year. I have expierenced about 5 of the severe side effects. Well yesterday a new release was announced on tv about "Deep Vein Thrombosis" So this morning, I brought this up to my doctor and he is ordering me a MRI. Although he doesn't believe that the Insurance will approve it, he is going to give it a try. In the meantime, he has mentioned that I take 1 asprin a day. Well, what are you to do except pray that all will be well and that GOD is in control. Sleep tight for now. Tammy

Preschool

Ryan is currently attending Ramona Lutheran Pre-school. There are many children in which he already knows who are in his classroom. The teacher's adore him. As you may already know this is Ryan's second attempt at a pre-school. The first pre-school kicked him out because he was a safety hazard. Ryan is really adjusting well here at Ramona Lutheran. I was quite shocked to receive a second bill from Ramona Lutheran for extended care. When totally the tuition and the extended care, the average monthly bill would be $694.00. This is way out of our budget. I immediately went to the manager and told her our delima. I explained to her that this is not what was explained to me. She suggested that I sumbit a request in reduction for monthly expenses. I went home and drafted my letter and sent it to them immediately. They would have to bring it up to the board for approval and it would be till October 15th. Well the 16th rolled around and I still hadn't heard from anyone so I called the office. Just what I thought, they turned me down. So I gave them a two weeks notice. It turned out that the teachers were not aware and that the manager took this into her own hands. I have since referred two people to that school and still have not received my credit. I have made arrangements for Ryan to attend Little People's effective November 1st. The school has since called to try to re-neogiate, but I have such a sour taste and trust issue that we are moving onto a different pre-school. With the school closed so many days, I would pay more out of my pocket for extended alternative day care and Eddie is loosing 10% pay effective January 1st. I think this decision is for the best. I just feel again for poor Ryan having to re-locate again. I can not tell you how excited I will be once he is in Kindgarten.